Punk!EnglandxEmo!Reader~The Way she Feels Songfic~

 ~*Arthur's point of view*~

   I'd never seen (Name) so happy in her life than the day I asked her to be my girlfriend. She's always so joyful, I never though she'd love someone like me. Being in a band, and not being the most charming guy in school...things worked out well between the two of us. At least..until the secrets came..
I never knew (Name) harmed herself...the things is...she never told me. I found out.
The day I found a blood stain on the tub before taking a shower. I was utterly shocked. At firt I thought it been her time of the month..but I saw another stain a few weeks after.
"(Name)!" I shouted the night, while seeing the blood run down the drain away from the sight.
"Yes dear?" she answered, so bubbly, and happy. It made me wonder how she could even think of harming herself.
"There's blood in the tub."
There was a moment of silence before she called back to me.
"Don't worry! I cut myself shaving! It's alright."
I decided to believe her, I mean..I loved her so much..I didn't want to bomb her with questions. Maybe she was telling the truth..so maybe she didn't actually harm herself..

    ~*A few months later*~

   
     While jotting down notes for my next song..I heard..humming? It sounded amazing, like an angel. Getting from my seat, I stepped quietly down the hall and found (Name) putting on a tank-top in our room. She was just humming to herself, not a care in the world. That was when I saw it. Little scars along her arms and wrists, covered up by layers of skin and some made scabs.
"(Name)?"
She turned and quickly pulled on her other long-sleved shirt.
"Hey Arthur." she smiled at me, not even realizing I already saw them. Was she hiding from me?
"Is everything alright?" she waved her hand in front of my face, instead I just smiled.
"Fine fine love~" I kissed her cheek. "I need to finish my song, I'll be a bit."
She smiled and let me leave. On my way down the hall..I got a tune stuck in my head. It was..the tune she had been humming.
"(Name)? What song were you humming?" I shoued down the hall, hoping she heard.
"I made it up silly!" she replied. "Why do you ask?"
I told her nevermind, and began to hum the tune again.
I picked up my pencil and began to write lyrics.
Usually I wrote the notes first, but this called for more lyrics than a beat..it was going to be for (Name).

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            *Normal P.o.V*


       "A gig Arthur that amazing!" you jumped up and down with a big smile on your face.
He nodded and wrapped an arm around you.
"It sure it. Come on let's go in."
As you walked in, Arthur planted a kiss on your cheek.
"What was that for?"
He let out a light breath and pressed his forehead against hers.
"Just because love~"
"Arthur Kirkland?" a tall dark man called. "Your up next."
Arthur grinned.
"Sit up front (Name) alright?"
Before you could answer, he ran off, grabbing his guitar.
It was just then you noticed...where was his band..?

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       You sat up near the front, awaiting for your British man to come on stange and work his muscial magic. Sighed after a long wait, finally the curtains opened to reveal the one and only Arthur. Your Arthur~
"I wrote this song..for someone special..." he replied into the mike, getting a little tense.
He began to play a melody on the guitar..it sounded like the song you were humming at random.
"Shout out to my (Name)!" he replied as he played, looking right at you, making your heart flutter. "I love you very much."
Many behind you awwed, even a young girl touched your shoulder and giggled for you.
It was then, Arthur began to play...~

 She's upset
Bad day
Heads for the dresser drawer to
Drive her pain away
Nothing good can come of this.
She opens it there's nothing
There is only left over tears
Mom and dad had no right she screams
As the anger runs down both of her cheeks.

Then she closed her eyes
Found relief in a knife
The blood flows as she cries

All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
Bite the lip, just forget the bleeding

Then she closed her eyes
Found relief in a knife
The blood flows as she cries

Woah, oh

Then she closed her eyes
Found relief in a knife
The blood flows as she cries

Curled up she's on the floor
Relief left her she had hoped for something more
From it (hoped for something more)
From it
He leans down to comfort her
She is weeping and He
Wraps His arms around
And around and around and...

The deeper you cut
The deeper I hurt
The deeper you cut
It only gets worse

Gets worse

Now she's slowly opening...
Yeah she's slowly opening
New eyes...

She opened her eyes
And found relief in His life
And put down her knives

Woah, oh

She opened her life
And found relief through His eyes
And put down
She put down her knife


         As everyone applauded, you reached up and grabbed his hand, tears trickling down your face.
"You knew..?"
He smiled and kissed your hand.
"I care about you."
He hopped off the stage and held you tightly in his arms.
"Never hurt yourself again.."
You smiled, more tears falling from your eyes.
"I promise Arthur."
From that moment on..everything was perfect.
And that song was always kept in your memory.
You kissed Arthur lovingly, while he wrapped his arms around your waist.
Afterwards, you went home and threw out all the old razor blades still hidden in your drawers.
and your over-protective boyfriend made sure they were all gone by inspecting your drawers about two time after